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Vol. 2001 Issue 06 ~ June

Freeze Time

Can You freeze time?

Freeze these moments of so much love

That I don’t know what to do with myself

Freeze these moments of so little sleep

That I don’t remember my own name half the time

Freeze these moments of so much awe

That I can’t help but praise Your Name for these amazing gifts

Freeze these moments of so many diapers

That I change more frequently than I change my own mind

Or do I—I can’t decide?

Will You freeze time?

Because as it is, I can’t see past tomorrow

My mind can’t envision myself

As anything

Other than the mother of two under two

Who knew?

I wouldn’t have believed it if someone had told me—

Five years and two kids ago

But why not?

What else could I possibly be doing?

This is my life

So please freeze time

Stop these moments from leaving

Keep the love, and the weariness, and the awe and the diapers

Right here

For just a moment

Longer

Part Two

One day later . . .

I thought I could take my "two under two" to Target. My motive was pure. I wanted a few items of clothing—for me. (Heaven forbid!) I need something to wear. Something that would somehow fit my new body - that resembling a Dr. Seuss character. What was I thinking? After two attempts into the store—the first thwarted by whining and screaming children, the second because I was positive a clerk was about to call Child and Family Services—I left. I packed us back into the car and went home. Just like that. And they both screamed the entire way.

So, what was I was saying just yesterday? Something about freezing time? I’ve changed my mind. Please don’t freeze it. Allow it to unfold at its normal pace. And I’ll just keep a journal.

© Elisabeth K. Corcoran, 2001

Elisabeth K. Corcoran is the author of Calm in My Chaos: Encouragement for a Mom's Weary Soul. This column is original and not from her book.

Submitted on : 01-Jun-2001